Long Time

Hi Folks,
Long time since I posted. Sorry.

Not long after my last post I found out that David had a brain tumor. It turns out that this was causing the change in his behavior. He started getting treatment for it and it reduced in size. Once the pressure it was causing his brain was gone he was back to his old self and incredibly remorseful and embarrassed. I feel that Amy took advantage of him (though she could not have known about the tumor). But she and her husband have left the area in hopes of saving their marriage. I will pray for them, but find it hard at the moment to forgive. I need to give it to God each day.

Well, a few months after the tumor was discovered David took a turn for the worse and died quickly. I was/am totally devastated. In many ways the kids and I are doing o.k. but just still in shock. The lack of income has forced me to be more creative and frugal in providing household items though.

love,
Jane

It has been a crazy year! I finally did get out of the hospital. I was not in a coma that long. David mis-led people. I was however, not able to use a computer for a long time. My hands were damaged and I needed a lot of physical therapy.



The worst part has been my relationship with my husband. A number of years ago it came to my attention that my husband was spending lots of money, behind my back, on food and video games. He had gained a bunch of weight and I couldn't understand why, because we eat mainly vegatarian. We worked through the lying and the trust issues (or so I thought). We had been 15000 dollars in debt and it took us 4 years to get out of it. While I was in the hospital, my family came by each day. One day, as I was talking with my daughter, I asked her how she was doing with taking care of the house more. She said that it was not to bad, that Amy was coming over to help out. I thought that was so great. Amy is a neighbor of ours whose family we have done lots of activities with. A few days later, my son was showing me photos he took while he had some friends over, Amy and David were in the background and seemed a bit too close for my liking. It sat in the back of my mind for a while but then I just felt I was over reacting. Soon I was going home. It was a great reunion. Seeing all my kids and husband at home just felt sooo good. A couple days later I was cleaning up and I found a digital camera card under the night stand. I gave it to my son, but he said that it was a different type than our camera takes, but you can just plug it into the printer to see whose it is. Luckily, I didn't get around to it until the next day when the kids were in school. Wow! It turns out that it was my husband's and Amy!!. You can imagine. Pictures AND videos! in birthday suits!!!!

Soooo! that is why I have taken so long to post. I was/am devastated. I thought he was honest with me after the spending issue!

Out

Hi all,
I am out of the hospital. Thanks for the prayers. Sorry I haven't written. Life has been crazy and sad. I need to go get the kids up.

love jane

Please Pray

Hello,

My name is David. Jane's husband. Jane had told me how to get onto her account if ever I needed to, but I couldn't find the paper until this morning.

On Nov 15th Jane was is a serious car accident. She was blindsided by a pickup truck that had run a red light. Jane was the only one in the car, so none of our children were injured. However, Jane has been in a coma since then. The doctors believe that she has not had much brain damage, but also can't confirm that either. Please pray that Jane would wake up and that we would all know comfort of our God.

thank you,

David

Hi Again!

Hi Ladies,
Sorry for not writing. The dessert recommendations were fantastic! Made both. :)

The reason for not writing is that we needed to cut expenses in light of the job situation. We needed to stop having an internet connection at home (as least for a little while). I plan on going to the library once a week or so, with the intention of keeping the blog going and communicating with friends and family.

Still no job yet, but God is good. Having less is definitely not bad. We spend more time together and less time with things. And with the fewer distractions, my husband and I have also enjoyed more time to be intimate. :) Who would have thought getting laid off would lead to that.

It has been so great to read all your posts. Kids growing, anniversaries, new handmade clothes...

love to all,

Jane

Autumn Dessert?

We have been invited to a Autumn dessert potluck. Any suggestions on a unique Autumn dessert?
-Jane

The "Best"

As I have been going about my days since David lost his job I have had lots of thoughts of, and conversations with God. One of the first thoughts that came to mind is "God wants what is best for me". That is such a powerful and reassuring truth. During the week though, I have heard God teaching me more about this. He has been saying, "Yes Jane, I do want what is best for you. But your idea of best and my idea of best can be so different. You may think that your best involves security (finances, relationships....) in your life, but you need to think beyond that. Trust in Me Jane. There are many thousands of your brothers and sisters here on earth that love me but are struggling to survive. They have no earthly finances and they are surrounded by the death of family and friends. Jane, I do want your best, but trust me even if your life does not seem good or fulfilling by man's standards. The best I have for you is unexplainable. Just trust me, love me and love others." May I be able to truly trust Jesus. - Jane